i have been thinking about blogging for years. i love the feeling of just sitting down at my computer, talking to myself in my head(im not crazy, i swear) and just letting my thoughts go wherever they want. the beauty of a hidden blod/journal is just knowing that i can do this fo myself. i find myself consumed with my thoughta dn worry because i never feel like i have someone to talk to about it. this is the only way i could think of to let all the chaos and mahem come out of my mine. this way i can get it out and hopefully feel some relief because of it. its not easy to be vulnerable and open with emotions. i get closed off when things become about me and i have a bad habit of putting a guard up and getting upset when things get hard to talk about. how do you change that? how do you become opena nd honest and able to trust others with everything? thats the goal in life i think. be able to love completely, trust with everything and find happiness beyond words. thats the goal and thats what im shooting for.