the biggest desire in life is to be wanted. wanted by friends, family, aquaintences…. really anyone who is there and willing to show us attention and love. i am lucky enough to have found the love of my life, a boy who shows me all the love, attention and care that anyone could ever dream of. watching sappy romance movies is like watching a movie of my life because we are madly in love and all the cute cheesy things they say and do that you only see in the movies…. that happens in my life, everyday. and i couldnt be any luckier. we have that stomach churning, mind boggling, butterfly giving love. the kind you can only dream of. somehow i found this love and im really not sure how. i was never someone who dated a lot, i had a couple casual boyfriends and went on a few dates in college but nothing worth falling for. i always saw my friends with boyfriends and in love and wondered why i never got that. i blamed it on my looks, weight and anything i could think of that gave me any sort of belief as to why i never felt like i got the same attention. flash forward years later. i finally found myself and who i wanted to be and then this cute boy with the bluest eyes and the sweetest dimple came into my life. its about timing. its about knowing who you are and being comfortable with that so you have the ability to be loved fully. if i cant love myself then how can i expect to love anyone else or expect them to love me? i learned i dont need to compare myself to others to feel loved. i dont need to be better than my friends or be like someone else. i just have to be me and be the best me possible. now that i have someone who loves me more than i can ever love myself or even imagine being loved i find myself questioning how someone can love me like that. why is it that i finally got what i dreamt of for so long and now i question how it can be real? it takes tears and fights and long talks to understand that i am worthy of being loved like that. we are all worthy of that love. i go through ups and downs of loving myself but having someone there to love me more than is imaginable is the best blessing in the whole world. love is scary. life is hard. but go out and love hard. be loved and dont be scared to feel it.