why do i get so overwhelmed? what makes me so stressed? it seems like no matter how good my life is, I can always find a reason to be anxious and worried about what is going to happen. i know everything always works out and will be okay but in the moment i can’t convey to my heart what my mind knows is the truth. things stressing me out currently:

1. we are about to have a baby…. I’m 8 months pregnant and could literally have a baby at any minute
2. we are about to move… that means packing our house, decluttering, selling and prepping to live in my moms basement for an unknown period of time
3. im sick. so sick and tired. i can’t sleep, get comfortable or do anything that makes me feel relaxed and I can just feel the tension building in my shoulders
4. the future. what will happen? where will we be? will my husband get into law school? i know as long as we are together and we have a healthy baby that everything will be happy and fine but it is scary to not have any idea what our source of income will be and we will just be relying on others around us to make sure we are okay and taken care of. scary stuff.

when i write it all out it seems so ungrateful to even worry about all of this. we are having a baby, have somewhere to live, have money, family, friends and health. but its scary to not have control of things in our future. i know how hard my hubby is working for our future and i want him to have all of his dreams come true so it stresses me out thinking he may not be able to. stressful.